Now, I have a heart of gold.
I am writing this as I wait for my airplane from Vientiane, Laos back to Thailand. I thought I would be going back to Bangkok but instead I am going back to Ao Nang. A lot has happened over the last three months. I guess most of it is too personal to share here. I will just say I had moved to Bangkok to be with an amazing woman. But I made some mistakes. She made some mistakes. Despite still loving each other we were unable to move past these mistakes and find a way to stay together. So I’ve been reflecting the time I’ve spent in Thailand a lot lately. Figuring out what I want to do. Thinking about my life. It is amazing how isolated one can feel in a big city like Bangkok. I have no friends there so I decided to come back to Ao Nang where I still have a few friends. Where I can climb, and go diving, etc… Life is easier in Ao Nang.
2 years and 9 months have passed since I first came to Thailand. It’s weird to see that in writing. When I first came here I thought I would stay for a year. Maybe two. But now it’s almost three years and I’ll most likely stay up to one more year. But I’m still not sure. I think these two pictures sum things up pretty well. 2 years and 9 months ago things were nice and tidy with only a little extra baggage. I still have the old bags but now they are a little dirty and worn. I also have a few new bags, things are not quite so neat and tidy anymore. So, what’s taking up so much space in all these extra bags?
- Diving gear.
- A foam roller.
- Running shoes.
- Climbing shoes and other gear.
- Some new clothes.
- Ceramic plates and bowls acquired in Chiang Mai.
- A handmade blanket also acquired in Chiang Mai.
- Hardware and other electronics I use for work.
- Various household items that should make like easier.
- Several books, mostly for learning Thai.
- Gopro camera and accessories.
Most of this is stuff I want to keep. But I don’t really need it. I also brought a bunch of stuff to Thailand that I don’t really need, I probably only needed three bags. I’ve learned a lot about myself over the last six months. I’m going to try to be alone for a little while. I’ll focus on work, climbing, running, diving, learning Thai, and simplifying my life. I’ll see if I can get it back down to 4 bags but that might not be possible. I’ll be happy with 5 too.